Ok, so today I was in the college cafeteria when I heard an announcement over the loud speakers “The African American Association is selling fried chicken today for $5!”
….What??? HAHAHA…seriously??? Why would an African American group reinforce a stereotype?? Don’t white people get yelled at for saying blacks eat “watermelon and fried chicken?” … idk … maybe they’re ok with that stereotype and take pride in it… I was just a little thrown off by it, especially in Spokane which is VERY white, and tends to be a bit prejudice….

Wow, I never thought I would be bombarded by so many old bad habits all at once….it’s like I’ve reverted to the old me.

First of all, I am falling way behind in school, and the problem is, I don’t come home and do homework, I just come home and eat, watch TV, and get on the internet….and waste HOURS that way, or I just simply hang out with Josh, doing things that I really don’t have time to do…

Along with all of that, my workouts have gone by the wayside, as well as my eating habits. I have gained back 5 pounds!!! I haven’t been to the gym in a month or so, and last time I went, I had 16% bodyfat…which is very good, but now, I’d be lucky if I was 20…

So, anyway, I think it is maybe some form of depression, well, kinda. I didn’t really start the quarter off real well, cause about 3 weeks into it I got really sick, and had to miss like 3 days of class, and that was over a weekend, so I didn’t get much homework done….

I think I am just wanting to be able to do stuff without always having to think about homework, and I just feel trapped by everything I have to do. This is the classic Sarah solution: just pretend like all my responsibilities have disappeared!!! …this works for a short time, but usually backfires in the end….

I can’t believe I let myself go. My jeans are uncomfortably tight…wow, I need to get to the gym NOW, before it gets any worse…If I fix it now, this could be the extent of the damage…just five pounds, and a couple not-so-good tests, but if I keep this up, I’m gonna have a really terrible quarter, and keep getting in worse shape….

I guess the proof of being a strong person is not in never falling, but it is the ability to pick yourself back up.

I’m sick today. Yeah, I felt it coming on, but I didn’t think it would amount to anything, and now I’m home with a sore throat/head cold. Sweet…but, I did kinda need a break from school and stuff. I wish so much that I still lived in vancouver. I mean, I am happy that I have a great boyfriend and that I am pursuing a career, but I wish I could have all that and be closer to you guys. I really miss my life over there…it makes me sad when you guys are having good times and I’m missing out on them…I miss my friends!!! I guess it’s good to keep me focused on school, but nothing will ever compare to the good times I had with you guys.

…I plan another trip to Vancouver.

So, I think it’s about time that I came to visit the ‘couve. It’s been a little while, and I figured that I have a week and a half break from school between quarters, so I was thinking of coming for a few days with Josh. We would probably leave early sunday morning, and leave for spokane early wednesday morning. What do you guys think….?

Let’s hang out…

Yeah, I am. Sometimes I don’t know what to think of myself. Seriously. Like I feel like everyday I am trying to raise a child or something…like I’m so difficult, I can’t even handle myself. lol. Wow, that’s Sarah Landrus for ya.

So, maybe you haven’t thought of this before, but my sister and I got in a discussion the other day about the Bible, Christianity, and Western ignorance. So, I’ve been taking this history class (which I should be writing a paper for right now) and before you get all suspicious that I’m being brain washed-stop. C’mon, I’m Sarah Landrus, I will always consider all facets when presented to me, I’m not just gonna jump on a bandwagon because someone says to…just indulge me here, and think critically…not out of emotion, or what others have told you…just rationally.

So, the whole Bible thing has had me wondering, in the last year or so…we give the bible the position of 100% truth. Now, before I get into this, let me first say that I do believe in Jesus Christ, absolutely, and I do believe him to be the son of God…but the bible that we read, and I’m not going as far to question any part of it, or say something like “I don’t believe that Mark 2:34 is true”, I’m just giving you some food for thought. If you look at the historical era when the bible was assembled, and how the version that we base all of our versions off of (the King James) was canonized, there was a lot of christian political propaganda going around, and there are some differences in the original from our sacred KJV. Also, there are a lot of manuscripts that are left out, NOT TO MENTION that the bible was written down for the FIRST time 100+ years after the fact…that is a lot of lag time…and humans corrupt things a lot of times, and our roots as Christians are not exactly crystal clean…basically, those stupid christians that we know today as the “pushy ones” and the ones telling people they are “going to hell” are the ones who laid much of the foundation for modern western christianity…

so these are my questions:
who was involved in putting the bible together (not the people who wrote it, those who compiled it)??
What were their motives/political agendas??
Why are there so many time lapses in certain parts of the bible (i.e. the 18 years where Jesus’ life was not recorded…from when he was 12 in the temple, to when he started his miracles)
Why didn’t Jesus write anything himself??
Why were those books that were written left out when the book was compiled?
(because mind you, paul and the others simply wrote, but they did not put the bible together…)

My other question is did Jesus’ message begin corrupting right after he ascended into heaven? And by corrupted, I mean, were men already becoming consumed with conversion and intolerable of others if they did not accept the message of Christ??

I really want to know this stuff…I don’t want to believe as an uneducated person, hardly any christians know historical background on our faith…and I think that that puts a lot of perspective on what we believe.

Just think……