Um, I should have been to bed 1.5 hours ago (it is 1030 as I type)…but I’m not. So I will write this quick post, I need to connect with you guys…because I love you.

Well, things are a little more sorted out than my last post. Josh was gone for almost 2 weeks, and it was really good, although I missed him to death, I was able to get my freaking life in order!! LOL, consisting of going to bed and waking up on time (9pm…5am) working out at the gym consistently, seriously, I am so much happier in a literal/scientific sense when I am working out regularly and getting proper sleep/nutrition.
I have been slimming down like I’ve wanted to, not through the anorexic methods, but eating 6 times a day, eating super healthy, doing cardio at the gym, and lifting weights…it’s been really good, and a challenge to my way of thinking about myself.
I got my belly button pierced, I know, finally, right Jessa??? Are you so excited…I’m sure you’re thrilled.
I also got a new JOB!!! Outback Steak House, I am a hostess, I will be making more money than I am now @ the bank, and getting more hours. I start Feb 19th because of my VACATION to the CARIBBEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And overall, school is going well. I need to get a handle on my english class (I will tomorrow), and my chem and history classes are coming along fairly well. I have to start working ahead these next couple weeks in preparation for the cruise.
Josh and I went to a bible study this sunday, with thee one and only david and monica von. Josh really liked it and felt really comfortable, which is good. I know that Josh loves God, it will just be nice for us to get into the word with other christians, and to be able to talk and grow together.

Overall, life is awesome. If I’m not on a schedule I fall off the edge of the earth…
I guess it’s either sink or swim…no in between.

So, this is what life’s been like lately:
Missing my friends in vancouver, being late for everything, lack of motivation, overwhelmedness, excited to go to the caribbean, sad that josh will be gone for 2 weeks, missing david, courtney, chris, jessa…a few others, missing old times, my own apartment, living carefree, loving that josh brought me roses tonight, wishing I could eat healthy consistently, wanting a digi cam to take pics, wanting to lose weight, thinking my history teacher is crazy, wondering if there will ever be a light at the end of the college tunnel, wishing I had more money, needing to apply for new jobs, worried that I won’t make enough to pay for bills, hating the bank, wanting a break from life, wishing I had more friends here, wishing I had more money, happy that I’m working towards a degree, wishing my life would just settle, looking for a church, needing to be connected somewhere, needing to be better at juggling responsibilities, gotta go tanning, want a new swimsuit, gotta lose that fat on my butt!, wishing I was back in vancouver, loving my boyfriend, making food for him, laying by the fire, wondering if I’ll make it through this quarter alive, missing my friends.